OH NO!!!

I know...

Lately,

I've been 'missing in action' again.

It's not that i am lazy or busy or... bla bla bla.

It's just that....

I AM ON HOLIDAY!

Feliz Navidad and Happy New Year 2010!

I am just so glad to celebrate these festive seasons with my ever beloved family at my family's house.

Too bad Bob is not around with us. He is dearly missed by all though.

It would be even merrier to have him around.

Miss u Hobs. We will do this together on our next vacay to KK. This time will be for REAL.

Haha. Love you.

Ta-ta.

My dear Ramen girl - RIP

I'd just wanna say that God has plans for all of us.

On the 20th December, just 5 days to Christmas, another brilliant star has left us in this big entertainment world.

Brittany Murphy, rest in peace.

More on news on OMG Yahoo.

some of my favs of her movies.









The Ramen Girl - the latest movie i watched of hers. Well, both me and Bob enjoyed the movie very much.

My family and LIMA

Today is my REST DAY.

I started my day wishing Bob a good morning and safe drive to work. We hugged and quick kiss before he left.

That was at about 6:45am.

Then, I took out a container out from the fridge. Inside : marinated chicken wings, i put it in a container and left it overnight. Letting them cool a bit, i started cleaning the sink, full of plates from last night's dinner with Bob.

Placed the chicken wings in the oven. Cook for about an hour. Hmmm, smells good.

I also made nasi lemak with sambal ikan bilis, and i fry some chicken wings too - Judy's request.

Got everything packed in my Tupperware containers and put them in my big Blue Harrods bag.

And i am ready to hit the road to LCCT to meet my family! Yey! (hmmm, i took a bus to NILAI bus station and from there i took a taxi to LCCT which costs me RM35.80 - that was my spending before 9:00am! Crazy!)

But, what the hell.... i am just so happy to meet them. They will only be on transit for couple of hours before their next flight to Langkawi.

They are going to Langkawi for the LIMA show.

Grrrrr............ I am so jealous. I can't go with them... wuaaahhh!

Anyways, i met them about 10:15am. My mobile phone was already dead, i can't reach them earlier through mobile, so i had to stand right at the front glass window to greet them....

Yippie!

They said i slimmed a bit. Wakaka! What a funny statement! I didn't even lose an inch, apalagi in KG!

I missed them so much, and my 18yrs old sister, Brenda was running towards me just to hug me. What a kiddo! Love her!

My cousin, Boy, was also there. And what surprised me more was when i saw Tigi! He is in the family holiday also...? I am so JEALOUS!!!

Well, this is another family vacation to be remembered, there are also two extra members in the family - Boy and Tigi! The more the merrier. My father always wanted that - more people means more happiness.

I can only join them on the 7th December.

To join them, there is something that i need to do.

No biggie thing. I just need 2 days.

Just two days.

We sat and had some family chats and jokes at McDonald's Restaurant. We laughed a lot. Glad to be with them even if it's only for few hours. We didn't talked any serious matters. We are such in an absolute holiday mood!

They left for Langkawi boarding gate at 11:15am. Again, we hugged and waved and giggled and laughed. It's just a never-ending of ours.

They are now at Langkawi. My sisters and the 2 boys are stucked in the airport while waiting for my parents. Both my parents went for the special LIMA exhibition. Tickets are Rm50 per ticket. Tickets valid til last day of LIMA. Good deal, huh?!

Well, they are indeed enjoying their vacation right now.

I waiting mine on 7th December. Will be right there with you all.

Muah!

of Noisette and NINE

The Noisette - that one particular song that really lingers in my head, Never Forget You. Wowwww! That is really a nice song. Me and Bob - loving it!

Hear it. Enjoy.



Watcha drinking?
Rum or whiskey?
Now won'tcha have a
Double with me?

I'm sorry I'm a little late
I got your message by the way
I'm calling in sick today
So let's go out for old time's sake

I'll never forget you
They said we'd never make it
My sweet joy
Always remember me

We were mysterious
And you were always wearing black
I was so serious
You know my boyfriend's mother
Nearly had a heart attack

I'm sorry I'm a little late
You know the stripes on a tiger
Are hard to change

I know this world feels
Like an empty stage
I wouldn't change a thing
So glad you're back again

I'll never forget you
They said we'd never make it
My sweet joy
Always remember me

I'll never forget you
At times we couldn't shake it
You're my joy
Always remember me

We just got swallowed up
You know I didn't forget you
We just got swallowed up

Well, we just got swallowed up
But you love that I didn't forget you
We just got swallowed up
By the whole damn world

Watcha thinking?
Did you miss me?
I borrowed your silver boots
Now if you'd just let me
Give them back to you

I'll never forget you
They said we'd never make it
My sweet joy
Always remember me

I'll never forget you
Although at times we couldn't shake it
You're my joy
Always remember me

Don't you know that you're my joy
Always remember me
Don't you know that you're my joy
Always remember me

********************


I read a column that Noisette has a featured song in the new musical broadway movie - NINE, but i am not so sure the title of the song. Guess i have to wait for the movie then. I just can't wait.....! In fact, most of the NINE movie-stars are Oscar winners - Nicole Kidman, Marion Cotillard (i did mentioned her in my last blog... love her!), Daniel Day-Lewis, Sophia Loren, Judy Dench, Penélope Cruz, Kate Hudson and Stacy Ferguson aka Fergie. Hmmmmm, yummy stars...!

Well, here are the trailers of NINE.







* Got that?! Seven Oscar winners in this movie! Who wouldn't want to watch NINE??? Ohhhh.... i am so in the front row to watch this movie!

BBC Radio 1 Live Lounge

I didn't know about this lounge at all.

I was so bored waiting for Bob. And while eating MeeHoon Soup i bought from my office, i was looking for acoustic version songs through YouTube.

And i found this BBC Radio 1 Live Lounge! Which is totally going to be my favorite spot after this.

Here are the songs i find very interesting and very acoustic! In fact, they sing other bands' or other singer's masterpiece. I must say they are very talented singers as they are able to sing a song that isn't theirs.

Nice, huh?!

Enjoy.


Paramore : Use Somebody (Kings of Leon cover)



One Republic : Mercy (Duffy cover)



The Noisettes : When You Were Young (The Killers cover)
* Hell i don't know anything about The Noisettes at all, but after watching this - Damn, she's good! I did some Google about The Noisettes, they sing good songs too! Bob, tolong download dulu their album ok....



Avril Lavigne : The Scientist (Coldplay cover)
*can't find a better video of this, just open your ears and listen la ok.



Well, you can enjoy more with video posted in YouTube.

Ta-ta.

of Ah Yen's big day and Adam Lambert and 2012

Bernadette Chung got married last Saturday, on 21 November 2009! Yey Ben, finally! The thing is, i felt left behind because i didn't get the chance to attend her big day, to at least celebrate with her. She invited me about a month ago, i had to turned it down. I had to working. No annual leave. All booked for my Christmas and New Year holiday. Geez....

Hope Ben understands my situation, being so far away from home, it is not easy for me to just jump here and there.

Sorry Ben. I bet you had great times on that day. All i can do is to congratulate you both and see the pictures that Zena, Audrey and Chris uploaded in the Facebook.

One person, really came into my mind was Leon. He, of course, was one of Ben's closest friend. Wouldn't it be just marvelous if he is still around.

Rest in Peace, dear friend. Wish you were here.

Well Ben, i am sooooooo happy for ya.

Apart from that, Adam Lambert's song Time for Miracles is an absolute great song! Good choice for taking that song into 2012 soundtrack. He of course my AMERICAN IDOL favorite. He is, indeed, the best in AI history. Agree?! Me sooo agree with myself!

Kris Allen, you are cute... but i like Lambert more. It's his voice that i can't resist from. His creativity. Again, he is the best! (My my... my gorgeous friend, DetroitRox - i am sure she sooooo gonna disagree with me... hahha! Lov u, girl)

As for the movie, it is good to see John Cusack back on track. It's a good movie. Let's just hope that kind of natural disaster won't happen to our world. Not now, not in the future.

Finger-crossed.

Click here to watch the first video of Adam Lambert for his song Time for Miracles which was featured in 2012 movie.

Oh, just a quick note - I LOVE THE LITTLE GIRL IN THE MOVIE. SHE IS JUST SO CUTE!

strange and beautiful & wicker park

Strange And Beautiful. I've been always listening to this song. Til now, this is still the best song. If you guys listen to this song... u might find it very moving, dark with lights, i don't know. Just love it.

And only today, i got to know who is the singer of that song. - Aqualung. Well, didn't really know this singer well but he made the song good with his voice and the piano.

To me, it sounds so mystery. Mystery with so much love in it.

I know this song from a movie. The movie's title, WICKER PARK, it is a love story of Matt and Lisa - played by (my love...) Josh Hartnett and Diane Kruger.

I just can't describe how i love the movie and of course, the song completes the whole meaning of the movie.

My recommendation to girls out there. Watch this movie. It's worth it. Trust me.

of Mr. Depp and Ms. Cotillard and a little bit of Ms. Paradis

Good Lord.

I am so in love with Johnny Depp!

I bet everyone is. Im a bit jealous with Vanessa Paradis. Plus the children? You are damn lucky girl. I envy this family!

I like him being so mysterious man.

Oh, i just love him. I do.

Here is the latest movie of him.

Public Enemies.



I just love the way he reacted plus the sad sad looking-face when his girlfriend was arrested in front of him and he couldn't do anything about it. And his face when he drove away from that place crying and sobbing for he knew it from that moment, that it would be the last time he will ever see her. Geez... that's a real touching part!


and i think i have a new favorite actress in mind. Marion Cotillard. After watching La Vie en Rose, i think she is the top actress now - hey, don't forget, she's an Oscar winner! By the way, it is tough job to be the legendary French singer, Edith Piaf. I don't think there will be another actress that could act as perfect as Ms. Cotillard. She is indeed a talented actress. 100%!



Well then. Enjoy. Public Enemies and La Vie en Rose.

Shania

Lately... i've been so addicted to Shania Twain's songs. Just three songs.

+ You've Got a Way
+ You are Still the One
+ From This Moment

I'm in so romantic mood recently. I listened to only these three songs from my Samsung mobile.

MAS transport.
In the public bus.
In my car (coz Bob listens to his songs from the car player).

Really... funny. But i do get sentimental whenever i listen to the 3 songs, especially - From This Moment. Maybe because there is a man's voice singing along as a second voice - i find it very handsome-voice.

Hmmmmm.....



I first know about Shania Twain when i watched Twister (1996 film). The soundtrack is No One Needs To Know by Shania Twain.

Enjoy.

You had me at 'Hello'.

Hwaaaaaa... again and again, over and over.... i never get bored of this song. And of course, the movie as well including its memorable quotation of - You had me at 'Hello'.

Secret Garden by Bruce Springsteen.

Jerry Maguire by Cameron Crowe.

Starring : Renée Zellweger and Tom Cruise.

All American Rejects @ KE672

While busy checking in a Business Class passenger, a close friend of mine, Dzul, whispered to me.

Darlene, cuba ko tengok passengers di sebelah counter ko. Macam Rob Thomas kan?

A group of people with tattoos, piercings, rings, punk shirts with some odd rock fashions.

I looked and turned to Dzul.

Dorang ni somebody la, Dzul. US artist ni!

Getting excited. Yes. I always get waaaaay too excited if i see any US band in front of me. I remember long time ago when i saw INXS, I excused myself from doing my flight just to get around them. We took many pictures together!

I asked Dzul if he knows any of them. He said they looked familiar but couldn't remember the name of the band.

I looked at Fazilah. She is a tall girl, and when i looked at her - she was already too happy and was hiding her head behind the counter - she gave me signal that in front of us memang someone famous! I immediately dialled her intercom, and she said - ALL AMERICAN REJECTS!

I told Dzul, and he said - yeah, move along move along.... lalalala!

I am not really into their songs - but then, hey - they are famous!!! I rather be proud seeing them than our local artistes.

They spent more than an hour checking in. Kindda puas hati also la looking at them.

The lead singer, hmmm... not so friendly, but then i saw him walking using a walking stick, ohhhhh, maybe that is what makes him so grumpy, i guess. But the rest of the band mates, they were real friendly. Fazilah took a picture of them.

I even got their big picture with their autographs on it. Thanks to the band's manager. Fazilah got one too. Jackie, our Korean Air Manager got two, dedicated to her daughters.

I know their songs but never really my fav.

But there was one song i used to like long time ago. The song was featured in AMERICAN WEDDING movie. Can't recall what year was that.

Here is the song. SWING SWING by All American Rejects.

Layan la....

Rain.

It's raining again. There is no sign of sunshine at all, just plain dark cloud. That worries me enough already, i'm working at 1800hrs shift later in the evening. Let's just hope it will stop raining by then.

Yesterday, it was raining and my ASTRO immediately was out of signal. Astro memang no mercy at all! Darn! I was watching Misery that time, and to bad - i didn't get to know the end of the movie. I watched that movie when i was little, i had to watch again because i forgot how it ends. When it is finally shown in Astro, raining la pula!

The bad thing about Astro is - u can't watch it when it is raining. and of course, we pay expensive fee for that 'lame service' every month. Imagine, now is a raining season. We pay for nothing.

Three days ago, it was raining heavily from the moment i got into the shuttle bus until i reached my place. i was all wet in my uniform, my court shoe! I used umbrella, but then the rain unexpectedly coming from every directions! Luckily, there was no LIGHTNING. My biggest fear, is always the LIGHTNING. I just can't stand the lightning sparks and its sound.

Rain rain go away. Come again another day.



Today's rain reminds me of Madonna's song Rain. While it's raining outside, let's enjoy this brilliant music video by Madonna.


-the lyrics-

I feel it, it's coming

Rain, feel it on my finger tips
Hear it on my window pane
Your love's coming down like
Rain, wash away my sorrow
Take away my pain
Your love's coming down like rain

When your lips are burning mine
And you take the time to tell me how you feel
When you listen to my words
And I know you've heard, I know it's real
Rain is what this thunder brings
For the first time I can hear my heart sing
Call me a fool but I know I'm not
I'm gonna stand out here on the mountain top
Till I feel your

When you looked into my eyes
And you said goodbye could you see my tears
When I turned the other way
Did you hear me say
I'd wait for all the dark clouds bursting in a perfect sky
You promised me when you said goodbye
That you'd return when the storm was done
And now I'll wait for the light, I'll wait for the sun
Till I feel your

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say, never go away

Waiting is the hardest thing
(It's strange I feel like I've known you before)
I tell myself that if I believe in you
(And I want to understand you)
In the dream of you
(More and more)
With all my heart and all my soul
(When I'm with you)
That by sheer force of will
(I feel like a magical child)
I will raise you from the ground
(Everything strange)
And without a sound you'll appear
(Everything wild)
And surrender to me, to love

Rain is what the thunder brings
For the first time I can hear my heart sing
Call me a fool but I know I'm not
I'm gonna stand out here on the mountain top
Till I feel your

Rain, I feel it, it's coming
Your love's coming down like

Rain, I feel it, it's coming
Your love's coming down like

Rain

song of the day.

Remember this song? Back in the late 90's, this is one of my favs. The frontman, Jakob Dylan is the son of a famous singer, Bob Dylan. He's good too, just like his father. This is 'One Headlight', of all, the best song by his band - The Wallflowers.


-the song lyric-

So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees

I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place

Chorus:
Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me & Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge

(chorus)

Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think her death it must be killin' me

Me soooo FAT!

I hate to say this, but the truth is - i am fat.

I always have this problem since i joined labuan taekwondo team back in secondary school years where we have to maintain our weight accordance to our own weight class category. I remember that i am in lightweight where i had to maintain my weight between 49-52kg (junior division).

How great was that?! 49-52kg! i must be jumping up and down if i still have such weight. We used to jog around Botanical Garden in Labuan, those days - i hate it, because i can't stand the training but i had to go because i was in the team. Our trainer was so strict, we had to run, we had to climb up and down the stairs, non-stop sparring. My taekwondo outfit is always dirty, damp because i sweat too much during training. Bruises here and there.

Looking back, would it be just wonderful if i keep jogging and of course, at least, that would not make me fat! A day before tournament or 4-5 hours before tournament, our weight will be taken, and if weight exceeds the class category, we'll be forced to run until we get back into the weight category or else, dismiss from the tournament.

Talking bout this, i miss those days where i have a good healthy body, and TAEKWONDO. I miss that! I miss my taekwondo friends. We had lots of fun during our taekwondo years.

One thing that really hit me rock bottom up til today is the part when i quit taekwondo, just months before the Sukma games. I was in that Sukma team - training like hell for a year, and i quit. I got all the sport outfits and i quit. I was lucky enough Master Lim did not fine me, he could have had me fined legally because i breached the contract. Yet he didn't. Thank God.

Personal issue, that was the reason.

Anyway, i called my father this morning. He told me that my sis Suzan is in good shape now. Really? And so i asked my other sister, Judy. She said daddy was telling the truth. Suzan is losing KG. She lost 10kg in 2 months.

*envy thoughts - go away!*

I want to lose 'them' too. I hate my FAT. And so i called Suzan, moments ago - she told me a few tips and on top of that - the magic 'ingredient' is HERBALIFE tea mix of lemon and hibiscus.

I WANT!

I want to get back in shape before Christmas. i want to surprise them too that i can do just like what Suzan does.

Good for her, but then totally not good for me. They will definitely say - The Fat Sister.

*Ouch!

This is what i call motivation.

Starting today.... erm, it's already almost dinner... erm, forget today. Let's start tomorrow then. It is time to starve and only STARVE!

Finger crossed. Let's hope for the best.

of Deschanel, Levitt and Ledger.

I just want to say that i like the girl Zooey Deschanel from the moment i saw her in ALMOST FAMOUS movie. Kindda like her a lot. Her face - let's just say - fashion-type look. Like Katy Perry, but i like Zooey better. When i first watch this video clip, i thought she is just a girl in that video clip, little did i know that she actually sings the song. Talented!

And of course, that guy Joseph Gordon Levitt, his face is so familiar to me. Then, i kindda have this glance of Heath Ledger as he dances in the video clip. He's definitely our next Heath Ledger, yeah, for those who misses Mr. Ledger, take a quick look on Levitt... his face will cure your broken heart. Believe me, i must say that i feel so happy that we still have someone like Ledger in this world. He is not totally gone yet. There is a new Heath Ledger! Let me introduce you - Joseph Gordon Levitt. He talks like him (minus the Aussie accent, of course!), his voice tone, his eyes, his body language, his hair... OMG!

Bob agrees with me on this one. Ha-ha!

Well then, enjoy the video clip of She & Him 's - Why do you let me stay here?

This is again, another fav of mine. A good song.

NBT5259

Date: 12th October 2009

Route: KLIA-Nilai

Plat No: NBT5259

Time: 2200hrs.

The bus stopped at KLIA Petronas Station. The bus driver asked me to stop using Minyak Kapak in his bus. His actually raised his voice at me!

I asked ,'Kenapa??!'

He said ,'Ini bas saya, suka hati saya la!'

What a jerk!

He is an Indian. Not that i have anything against Indian race. In fact, my team mate is an Indian, she is a lovely Indian girl. I have no issue with Indian people but why do you care about me using Minyak Kapak??

Please do respect your customer. We are human being too. And please remember, keep in mind, you are just a bus driver!

NBT5259. What a PIG!

0741hrs

Yesterday. I called Anna, around 4pm but again, she didn't picked up my calls.

Why? I have no idea.

I was hoping that we both can go out for a chat maybe, well, my intention was to bring her out so she could help me with some groceries shopping at Giant.

I hate shopping groceries all by myself. It is always with Bob.

And so i didn't get to go out because no one there to take me out. And, there was nothing to cook.

I had a plan for Bob yesterday. I wanted to celebrate his first-day-working by preparing some dinner for him.

Since, there was nothing to cook, i waited for him.

And instead, we went out to HongKong Restaurant for, well, let me say - a quick dinner. We had Chicken Rice for 2 and Sprouts. I drove the car, because he said he was too tired to drive.

He went to work again today. I woke up early too. I prepared him the breakfast - toasted bread with half-cooked eggs. I didn't make him any coffee or tea or even milo. That would make his stomach uneasy, he said. He drank Revive, instead. A cold one!

I have to go back to sleep. My shift starts at 4pm. Surprise, surprise! Today, im going to work by bus. I can't recall the last time i took a bus. This is how it's going to be starting today. Bob's using the car and i am willing to go to work by bus. Fair and square? well, the truth, i don't even mind.

I could call that as an exercise. Who knows i could lose a few pounds by walking from house to the bus-stop. Hahaha.

Oh, bout Anna, she never returns my call since yesterday. :(

First day.

I need the money.

You need the money.

We both need money.

We have a lot of things in mind that involve money.

There is always money talk. One conversation that i hate most.

HA-HA!;)

That is so untrue. (70% is true. Hmmmm.... Make it 90%!)

To make it short and easy to understand, yep... money is always a thing that stop us from doing things we want to do. It's like there is always a barrier in front of us. When we passed it through, there is always another barrier in front of us. Money is always the main subject in human life.

Why money even exist in this world?! (Mmmm, that's too much already. Forget that i said that ;))

Well, today is a good day, i guess. Today is his first day working. Excitement & nervous - came all at once.

It's a good day where we normally wish a person 'Good Luck' on his/her first day working.

We woke up early. He went for a quick shower. I cooked breakfast, the least i can do today. Nothing special on the menu, just 2 half-cooked egg, a pork sausage and a Ramly beef patty. Errrr... i didn't realize that it is such a heavy meal for a breakfast! Oh... what a fat breakfast!

I just hope that with both of us working, everything will be okay - happier, all i want is the two of us feeling the same happiness. No more sadness. Happy is just the word i am into right now.

I saw a full moon, a bright one... a little cloudy but man, it was beautiful. The time was at 0620am! A moon?!

I saw it while sending him to the car. Could be a good sign today for both of us.

Yes, i could feel it. It is a good sign.

Smile.

Good luck, Hobs.

where have 'u' been???

i am still around.

;)

will be back, shortly. (yeah right!)

Lazy+Sleepy+&Lazy

I'm at my family's house. Had the most fun yesterday and of course the day before, and the day before that. We had the bestest fun ever. Plus, we are the happy and loving family! Everyone knows that... ehem!

Wanna put pictures that i took so far during our family outing but i am so bloody sleepy and tired, i just didn't get enough rest since day 1 i arrived. Not that it is bad, it was fun - it's just that my body is out of energy right now.

I am truly exhausted.

Will try to post all the pictures when i finally got myself fully pumped up with energy. Ha-ha!

And now, it's time for me to go for a nap - joining Brenda. She's already on her beauty sleep position - with Carla, the youngest cat in the house.

Ta-ta for now. It's only 12:38noon. How bad is my restless-body?? *sigh*

Yasmin Ahmad

When I first heard, I couldn't believe. But I was oping for miracle when you are in the hospital. Deep inside me, says she is not going through it, which worries me.

I checked on the internet, clearly checking for updates of her in the internet.

Last night, around midnight, i read the most devastated news from Bernama page. Her death was comfirmed at 2325pm.

There was a silence.

An hour later, i brought the bad news to my fiancee.

I am going to miss her smile. I first saw her on Korean Air flight arrival from Incheon-Kuala Lumpur. She smiled at me.

I checked her in to KLM flight at the counter, she was the most friendly person on that night. She talked a lot about Geneva where her movie was nominated at. I can't recall what movie was that. She was a wonderful person, with great smiles!

I am going to miss her. Her works - there be no more like hers, after this. This woman has her own idea to make things remembered by many people. Her ads really open people's mind. Same goes to the films she made. I am going to miss all that. Her idea, her brilliant great work.

There will be no more like her. Replacement is definitely impossible.

Yasmin Ahmad, there be no one like you in this world. We need you, yet you left us to be with God. May you rest in Peace now. God bless and condolence to you dear family.

Amen.

Random

I am so tired. God knows how tired i am now.

I just can't stand 4am shift! I always sleep late, and how am i to wake up early???

No idea. I end up feeling sleepy everyday (only during my 4am shift).

I hate it. Or hate my job???

I'm too old to look for another job. Wonder why i picked this job in the first place.

They didn't extend me extra hours today. That's weird. But good.

At least, i get the chance meeting up Bob's brother and sis and Valerie. They were at my place for lunch. I missed having lunch with them.

My plan today is - to go sleep early. See if i could do that.

;) taken last week. Cibbo.

Peace be with you

Saying goodbye is rarely easy. Some people don't say goodbye until it's almost too late.

He will always be the King of Pop in music industry, or perhaps in bigger business - entertainment industry.

Michael Jackson, you will always be remembered.

1958-2009. RIP.

No cake but surprise!

I said in my last blog that i'd be going to Anna's house to celebrate her birthday. She said she didn't need one and so i respect her needs. So there was no cake.

But, turned out - there was a surprise behind all that. My boss interviewed her last week, well, she didn't get the exact job she asked for, but she was offered to join my department! And the best thing is, she called me just now to tell me that my boss will consider her request to join my team! A little weird though, but what the heck - it would be fantastic! After all, we both are from the same batch back in year 2003.

Hmmm.... Bob went out to buy TOTO, today is a special draw. He won the other day. On Magnum, and guess what, he bought carpet grasses and packets of sand for our backyard!

Oh, tonight is Transformers! Can't wait for it!!!

Dzul and Sree, enjoy ur day at work. I'm on my annual leave. Oh, how i love bragging about this... :)

I make Peace with the Sun.

I am on my Offday & Restday today! I have been waiting for these 2 days... just for me to relax and do nothing, of course - clear my mind.

Today is Father's Day... wished my dad via sms just now. Too bad i am not there to at least wish him with a kiss on the cheek while hugging him. Hmmm, can't remember when was the last time i celebrated Father's Day. He is in Brunei, me in KL and the rest of the family is in KK. Ha-ha!

Not forgotten, today is Anna's birthday. I feel bad for her because she is all alone on her birthday. Called her in the afternoon, i asked if she needs to go anywhere - she said she wanted to stay at home. I called it her way to make peace with herself. Her late husband died on April, just a month before their 3rd wedding anniversary. She was so devastated that her husband is no more longer with her. Today is her birthday, and a month from now would be her husband's birthday.... just imagine, how sad is that?!

I am going to her place later. I am sure, a piece of cake would make her day better.

Heavy brain of mine...

To tell you the truth, i have a lot of things going on in my mind.

Don't know where to start, and personally, i have no idea how to end it.

Seriously, i wish - with a blink of an eye, it would go away.

Erase it. Do we have that kind of technology, like what we always see in the movies?

Honestly, this is not fun. It is not an interesting chapter either.

I guess i am hoping too much. We can't always get what we want.

What i want?

A life. A perfect one.

But how? By creating one? Or by building one?

I hate failures, and to that, i am afraid of life. I don't even have the guts to at least imagine how my life would be like.

I'm tired. Exhausted. My brain is always talking. I feel like someone else is living inside me.

I need some air, with rainbows surrounding me.

But, like i said.... i hope too much.

Mamma Mia...!

i know....

it's been awhile....

High BP

I didn't go to work today. My BP is high again - shocking 175/120. I just don't know what to do anymore with the high BP. I did everything - from changing my food to a healthy food, but it's getting worser. A doctor suggested that i should go back to Columbia Medical Centre but i refused because the hospital would want me to stay there.

I just don't want to be in hospital anymore.

I used to be very healthy. Why is this happening to me?

I hate my job all of sudden. Because of the extend hours they force us to do, this is what i get.

Although it is a good money from the extend hours, i won't be able to enjoy it with my BP so high.

175/120 isn't just high blood pressure, it's begin to panic, alarm-bell-ringing, ready-the-stroke kit sort of a number.

I can't do exercise. With my stupid roster, i won't be able to do even 20 minutes exercise. It is stupid. Report duty at 4am and finish work at 11pm! How stupid is that?! And until today, no one is complaining except me.

How long will this go on?! Until someone dies?

goodbye...

i wont be missing you.

enough is enough.

goodbye.

the hardest thing to do.

Cut it to pieces.

12:04am

Just got back from work.

I just hate my department - day by day, it's just getting worse and worse!

I love MAS but not the higher level people in my dept. Especially those who in charge of rostering staff.

Enough about work. Now that i am home, i'm feeling much better with Hobs around.

Miss my sisters....

Miss my family...

I wish to stay longer the other day. I was kind of hoping that i wouldn't be able to make on that flight. But unfortunately, i was accepted on that flight, along with Jane D.

To see Judy cried while hugging me, that moment really made me want to stay and just stop working in KL.

I love my family very much. They are definitely my LIFE. Can't imagine my life without them.

And of course, I love my Hobs too...

On my way home from work just now, i listened to my old CD i found in the cd folder. It was Sarah Maclachlan's cd. I love her, the voice, the songs, the music. So much feeling in her songs. I imagine all things while listening to her musics.

I have this aloe vera gel on my face. Can't really talk to Hobs coz i don't wan to ruin the 'gel mask'. hehehe!

He is watching Bean: The Holiday movie right now. From our room, i could hear him laughing in that living room, as if he is watching it for the first time.

He, somehow, is still sick - he is not feeling very well but yet, i could see the cigarette!

How to get well if like that...?!

Macam budak budak... :)

i still love you though.....

missing my hometown!

i am actually back in KL.

Damn.

11:24pm

What a day! Really tired but i enjoyed every minute of it.

We spent a few hours at Tampasak - a small family gathering. Nothing much, just makan makan and pukul gong.

The thing that i enjoyed most was being with my little cousins. We played PS2 and PSP all day. It was fun spending time with them.

Suzan came a little late and it was already raining when she arrived. She was still in her Air Asia uniform. Funny.

We left the place at around 5pm. On our way home, we saw an accident. The plat number was 1899. Hmmm... 4D.

Me, my aunt, grandma and mum reached home first whilst Suzan, Judy & Brenda went to fetch our cousin, Boy, from his workplace at Karamunsing. He will be staying another night at our house.

At this time, my grandma is sleeping. She is a little bit drunk. And the rest of the family members are watching UNBORN movie. I am not watching it but the TV is right behind me. I am not watching it but i could hear every single word from the movie. I am just not a big fan of horror movie.

I am sleepy now. Want to go to sleep but takut sikit to go to the room.

But, what the hell ~ i am so sleepy... need to go to sleep!

Oh, met an old friend at Gaya Street this morning. Chris. He is married now, he introduced me to his wife. They have a kid, if i am not mistaken - 6 months old. I think i congratulated him, i don't know - ingat ingat lupa.

He probably think ~wow, Darlene's so fat oredi.

Fat pun fat la.... hehe :)

10:55am

Suprisingly, we are home early from Gaya Street.

Why? Well, nothing's personal. The place is always the same. Not much different from my last visit.

But then, gosh...! i think i spent almost $100 there. Mostly, souvenirs and food.

Memang mata rambang ba.... hihihi!

Although we spent little time there, i'm looking forward to visit that place again on my next holiday.

Got to go out again. A little tired but today is my last day in KK. Better be tired than nothing.

Happy Easter peeps!

Jezzzzzz..............! I really have problem using this laptop! I typed and next thing i know, all is gone!

I hate it. Well, forget it. Let's start over.

Carlos, the cat is really bugging me at this very moment. He is curious with what i'm doing. He keeps on hopping onto the keypad.

Ignore him. He's on my chest right now and watching every single word i typed on the screen with his little round curious eyes. As much as it being little naughty all day, he is still a darling to me. What a cute little creature.

Oh yes, it passed midnight, today is Sunday - Happy Easter everyone!

Well, we have all things planned for tomorrow... oh, not tomorrow... but today!

First of all, we are going to Gaya Street. Then jalan jalan for a while before going to my uncle's house at Tampasak. I don't really know why we are going there but according to Judy, we are going there to pukul gong. They just bought one set of gongs and it is time to pukul the gong. Traditionally, they said if we never pukul the gong after buying it, it will never make a sound out of it - it's more like BISU to them.

I don't know. It's something that i find unexplainable and of course, ridiculous in some ways. But hey, i am a Kadazan - i grew up with traditions and superstitious beliefs around me. All religions and races do have their very own traditions.

Unexplainable. Hmmmm....

It's 1:30am. i am not that sleepy yet, but i think it is time for to go to bed.

Have to make one more short call to my darling Hobs. Just to say goodnight.

Oh... about the hamster babies, out of 8 babies - now left only one baby. Well, it's okay. First born normally like that, i guess. Hobs was a little worried though. :)

p/s : i miss my dad. Happy Easter, Daddy. & love you, Hobs!

on welcoming new members in the family

Bob called me this afternoon. He suspected that my female winter pearl hamster is pregnant.

He said the hamster looks really big than the male.

I was jumping here and there. Happy la.

That time i just finished helping Suzan at her leech-breeding farm. I didn't help much though other than screaming and shouting... geli la!

And the he called again in the evening.

He said - sudah beranak la the hamster.

I screamed!

Too bad that i am not there to witness everything.

Well, i guess Bob has to jaga them while i am still here in KK.

Good luck Hobs~!

Home

Can't believe that i am actually in KK now.

I took 4am flight from KUL to BKI. Reached KK at about 6.30am. Just in time for breakfast with family. We spent almost an hour at a coffee shop, catching up stories with my parent and sisters.

Laughter.

But deep inside me, i am still thinking of Anna, hoping that she is alright.

Today is Brenda's birthday. There will be a small barbecue party for her tonight. Guests? Family only la...

Can't believe she's eighteen years old now. She grew into a fine lady, i must say. She's smart too. She even has a boyfriend, as much as i think that she's too young for love, but what the heck, she's all grown up now. She knows what is best for herself.

Ahhhhh, i am so full right now. Feeling a little bit sleepy too. Kenyang la. Just finished makan Bak Kut Teh (the one i brought from Nilai) with family.

Shower. That's what i need right now.

Hope this Easter holiday would at least free my mind from thinking about work. Work at the airport - really killing me, stressful.

I really need this holiday. I guess.

*miss my Hobbes so much, he was not able to join me. Yalah, Roxy and those cat, kena ada tukang jaga lor... Hehe, love you Hobbes.

Old deleted, New created.

Yep. This blog is totally NOT my first.

I created many blog before this blog. But then, since tidak beroperasi that well, so, i create a new one.

Teda salah mah kan....? :)

I can't really recall what was my last blog about. I really love writing diary during my teen years, as i got older... i always thought of getting a new diary for me to write, tapi... iyalah, tua sudah kan, ada hati lagi mau tulis tulis...

Anyways,

What brings me to blog is because i think this is a way for me to remember whatever things that have come across my mind. I am a forgetful person, so, blogging is a good way for me to remember a few little things that i wouldn't want to forget.

I lost a friend on the 23rd March 2009. Received a call from a friend. It was at 5:30am. What a devastated news! Went straight to the police station to meet his wife, a friend as well. When i found her crying, helplessly, on that chair that morning, it really hit me, it broke my heart.

Asthma attack while driving himself to a nearby 24hrs clinic. Hit the road divider. Died on the spot.

Both husband and wife are my ex-housemate. We stayed together for 2 years.

Ups and downs? We always share that moments together. Conflict? We had our moments of that too, but it was more about loving and taking care of each other as a family.

I love both of them very much. With all my hearts, they are truly like a family to me.

A few of his things are left in this house. Those thing reminds me of him. And Anna, his wife.

She will survive this hard times. I will help her in every way i could.

Anna, life is definitely a long lesson in humanity. This is a part of it. You must learn to be strong and survive life. Trust me, he is around to see you through this lesson.

Hafiz, rest in peace. You will always be remembered.
(1981-2009)