Rain.

It's raining again. There is no sign of sunshine at all, just plain dark cloud. That worries me enough already, i'm working at 1800hrs shift later in the evening. Let's just hope it will stop raining by then.

Yesterday, it was raining and my ASTRO immediately was out of signal. Astro memang no mercy at all! Darn! I was watching Misery that time, and to bad - i didn't get to know the end of the movie. I watched that movie when i was little, i had to watch again because i forgot how it ends. When it is finally shown in Astro, raining la pula!

The bad thing about Astro is - u can't watch it when it is raining. and of course, we pay expensive fee for that 'lame service' every month. Imagine, now is a raining season. We pay for nothing.

Three days ago, it was raining heavily from the moment i got into the shuttle bus until i reached my place. i was all wet in my uniform, my court shoe! I used umbrella, but then the rain unexpectedly coming from every directions! Luckily, there was no LIGHTNING. My biggest fear, is always the LIGHTNING. I just can't stand the lightning sparks and its sound.

Rain rain go away. Come again another day.



Today's rain reminds me of Madonna's song Rain. While it's raining outside, let's enjoy this brilliant music video by Madonna.


-the lyrics-

I feel it, it's coming

Rain, feel it on my finger tips
Hear it on my window pane
Your love's coming down like
Rain, wash away my sorrow
Take away my pain
Your love's coming down like rain

When your lips are burning mine
And you take the time to tell me how you feel
When you listen to my words
And I know you've heard, I know it's real
Rain is what this thunder brings
For the first time I can hear my heart sing
Call me a fool but I know I'm not
I'm gonna stand out here on the mountain top
Till I feel your

When you looked into my eyes
And you said goodbye could you see my tears
When I turned the other way
Did you hear me say
I'd wait for all the dark clouds bursting in a perfect sky
You promised me when you said goodbye
That you'd return when the storm was done
And now I'll wait for the light, I'll wait for the sun
Till I feel your

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say, never go away

Waiting is the hardest thing
(It's strange I feel like I've known you before)
I tell myself that if I believe in you
(And I want to understand you)
In the dream of you
(More and more)
With all my heart and all my soul
(When I'm with you)
That by sheer force of will
(I feel like a magical child)
I will raise you from the ground
(Everything strange)
And without a sound you'll appear
(Everything wild)
And surrender to me, to love

Rain is what the thunder brings
For the first time I can hear my heart sing
Call me a fool but I know I'm not
I'm gonna stand out here on the mountain top
Till I feel your

Rain, I feel it, it's coming
Your love's coming down like

Rain, I feel it, it's coming
Your love's coming down like

Rain

song of the day.

Remember this song? Back in the late 90's, this is one of my favs. The frontman, Jakob Dylan is the son of a famous singer, Bob Dylan. He's good too, just like his father. This is 'One Headlight', of all, the best song by his band - The Wallflowers.


-the song lyric-

So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees

I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place

Chorus:
Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me & Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge

(chorus)

Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think her death it must be killin' me

Me soooo FAT!

I hate to say this, but the truth is - i am fat.

I always have this problem since i joined labuan taekwondo team back in secondary school years where we have to maintain our weight accordance to our own weight class category. I remember that i am in lightweight where i had to maintain my weight between 49-52kg (junior division).

How great was that?! 49-52kg! i must be jumping up and down if i still have such weight. We used to jog around Botanical Garden in Labuan, those days - i hate it, because i can't stand the training but i had to go because i was in the team. Our trainer was so strict, we had to run, we had to climb up and down the stairs, non-stop sparring. My taekwondo outfit is always dirty, damp because i sweat too much during training. Bruises here and there.

Looking back, would it be just wonderful if i keep jogging and of course, at least, that would not make me fat! A day before tournament or 4-5 hours before tournament, our weight will be taken, and if weight exceeds the class category, we'll be forced to run until we get back into the weight category or else, dismiss from the tournament.

Talking bout this, i miss those days where i have a good healthy body, and TAEKWONDO. I miss that! I miss my taekwondo friends. We had lots of fun during our taekwondo years.

One thing that really hit me rock bottom up til today is the part when i quit taekwondo, just months before the Sukma games. I was in that Sukma team - training like hell for a year, and i quit. I got all the sport outfits and i quit. I was lucky enough Master Lim did not fine me, he could have had me fined legally because i breached the contract. Yet he didn't. Thank God.

Personal issue, that was the reason.

Anyway, i called my father this morning. He told me that my sis Suzan is in good shape now. Really? And so i asked my other sister, Judy. She said daddy was telling the truth. Suzan is losing KG. She lost 10kg in 2 months.

*envy thoughts - go away!*

I want to lose 'them' too. I hate my FAT. And so i called Suzan, moments ago - she told me a few tips and on top of that - the magic 'ingredient' is HERBALIFE tea mix of lemon and hibiscus.

I WANT!

I want to get back in shape before Christmas. i want to surprise them too that i can do just like what Suzan does.

Good for her, but then totally not good for me. They will definitely say - The Fat Sister.

*Ouch!

This is what i call motivation.

Starting today.... erm, it's already almost dinner... erm, forget today. Let's start tomorrow then. It is time to starve and only STARVE!

Finger crossed. Let's hope for the best.

of Deschanel, Levitt and Ledger.

I just want to say that i like the girl Zooey Deschanel from the moment i saw her in ALMOST FAMOUS movie. Kindda like her a lot. Her face - let's just say - fashion-type look. Like Katy Perry, but i like Zooey better. When i first watch this video clip, i thought she is just a girl in that video clip, little did i know that she actually sings the song. Talented!

And of course, that guy Joseph Gordon Levitt, his face is so familiar to me. Then, i kindda have this glance of Heath Ledger as he dances in the video clip. He's definitely our next Heath Ledger, yeah, for those who misses Mr. Ledger, take a quick look on Levitt... his face will cure your broken heart. Believe me, i must say that i feel so happy that we still have someone like Ledger in this world. He is not totally gone yet. There is a new Heath Ledger! Let me introduce you - Joseph Gordon Levitt. He talks like him (minus the Aussie accent, of course!), his voice tone, his eyes, his body language, his hair... OMG!

Bob agrees with me on this one. Ha-ha!

Well then, enjoy the video clip of She & Him 's - Why do you let me stay here?

This is again, another fav of mine. A good song.

NBT5259

Date: 12th October 2009

Route: KLIA-Nilai

Plat No: NBT5259

Time: 2200hrs.

The bus stopped at KLIA Petronas Station. The bus driver asked me to stop using Minyak Kapak in his bus. His actually raised his voice at me!

I asked ,'Kenapa??!'

He said ,'Ini bas saya, suka hati saya la!'

What a jerk!

He is an Indian. Not that i have anything against Indian race. In fact, my team mate is an Indian, she is a lovely Indian girl. I have no issue with Indian people but why do you care about me using Minyak Kapak??

Please do respect your customer. We are human being too. And please remember, keep in mind, you are just a bus driver!

NBT5259. What a PIG!

0741hrs

Yesterday. I called Anna, around 4pm but again, she didn't picked up my calls.

Why? I have no idea.

I was hoping that we both can go out for a chat maybe, well, my intention was to bring her out so she could help me with some groceries shopping at Giant.

I hate shopping groceries all by myself. It is always with Bob.

And so i didn't get to go out because no one there to take me out. And, there was nothing to cook.

I had a plan for Bob yesterday. I wanted to celebrate his first-day-working by preparing some dinner for him.

Since, there was nothing to cook, i waited for him.

And instead, we went out to HongKong Restaurant for, well, let me say - a quick dinner. We had Chicken Rice for 2 and Sprouts. I drove the car, because he said he was too tired to drive.

He went to work again today. I woke up early too. I prepared him the breakfast - toasted bread with half-cooked eggs. I didn't make him any coffee or tea or even milo. That would make his stomach uneasy, he said. He drank Revive, instead. A cold one!

I have to go back to sleep. My shift starts at 4pm. Surprise, surprise! Today, im going to work by bus. I can't recall the last time i took a bus. This is how it's going to be starting today. Bob's using the car and i am willing to go to work by bus. Fair and square? well, the truth, i don't even mind.

I could call that as an exercise. Who knows i could lose a few pounds by walking from house to the bus-stop. Hahaha.

Oh, bout Anna, she never returns my call since yesterday. :(

First day.

I need the money.

You need the money.

We both need money.

We have a lot of things in mind that involve money.

There is always money talk. One conversation that i hate most.

HA-HA!;)

That is so untrue. (70% is true. Hmmmm.... Make it 90%!)

To make it short and easy to understand, yep... money is always a thing that stop us from doing things we want to do. It's like there is always a barrier in front of us. When we passed it through, there is always another barrier in front of us. Money is always the main subject in human life.

Why money even exist in this world?! (Mmmm, that's too much already. Forget that i said that ;))

Well, today is a good day, i guess. Today is his first day working. Excitement & nervous - came all at once.

It's a good day where we normally wish a person 'Good Luck' on his/her first day working.

We woke up early. He went for a quick shower. I cooked breakfast, the least i can do today. Nothing special on the menu, just 2 half-cooked egg, a pork sausage and a Ramly beef patty. Errrr... i didn't realize that it is such a heavy meal for a breakfast! Oh... what a fat breakfast!

I just hope that with both of us working, everything will be okay - happier, all i want is the two of us feeling the same happiness. No more sadness. Happy is just the word i am into right now.

I saw a full moon, a bright one... a little cloudy but man, it was beautiful. The time was at 0620am! A moon?!

I saw it while sending him to the car. Could be a good sign today for both of us.

Yes, i could feel it. It is a good sign.

Smile.

Good luck, Hobs.